thoughts

On leaving your day job.

Something curious happened recently. In the shift of turning myself into my own boss, turning passion into career, I found myself validating everything with a simple criteria: Is this paying?  Ew. What?

This probably happens when you do start to depend solely on your craft to make a living, which is what I’ve been trying to do since I quit my day job and got a lot hungrier. Without the security of a semi-weekly paycheck, it starts to seem like everything you do falls under a) waste of time, or, b) vital. There’s a huge problem with that when you mix art, creativity, and professional, and that is, as an artist, the time spent in between actual productions, paintings, songs, series… all the accidental meetings, the sunrises, unfortunate events, books read, conversations overheard, words spoken, are completely vital to that creation. You must be alive, and you need to NEED to create, struggle is inspiring, errors are lessons, and more than once they have been accidental inspiration, and that (to me) is what keeps art a natural thing.

“In the world of the dreamer there was solitude: all the exaltations and joys came in the moment of preparation for living. They took place in solitude. But with action came anxiety, and the sense of insuperable effort made to match the dream, and with it came weariness, discouragement, and the flight into solitude again. And then in solitude, in the opium den of remembrance, the possibility of pleasure again.” –Anais Nin

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“Do whatever you do intensely. The artist is the man who leaves the crowd and goes pioneering. With him there is an idea which is his life.” –Robert Henri

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“Build a good name. Keep your name clean. Don’t make compromises, don’t worry about making a bunch of money or being successful. Be concerned about doing good work. Protect your work and if you build a good name, eventually that name will be its own currency. Life is like a roller coaster ride, it is never going to be perfect. It is going to have perfect moments and rough spots, but it’s all worth it” –Patti Smith

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There’s never a guarantee that what you do is what someone else wants. I do believe there’s a bigger chance of being happier if you spend your life creating and offering the world what truly lives within you. We all lose ourselves in music and our bodies dance, our bones arent having a discussion with our brains on what comes next, it just happens. Lose yourself in your own wilderness and you will create something far more beautiful than anything created as a “tribute” to something we wished we belonged to.

I think that true artists are often copied by the masses today because it’s hard to be authentic these days. It’s much easier to imitate, when a part of you is telling yourself that looking the part is half the battle, but wearing crochet dresses and heart sunglasses isn’t what’s inspiring, it’s what you do with yourself, costume and all.

Be careful of treating yourself, artist, like an employee, when you become your own boss. Don’t shut off your whims, believe in your instinct.

I often have moments of crushing doubt. Lord Byron said “I deny nothing, but doubt everything.” The occasions where I find myself surrounded by like minded beautiful people, am collaborating on art, the times that I look at my little house, the flowers, take a bath and remember how I got there are some of the most life affirming moments I’ve ever felt. They’re up there with holding brand new kittens, meeting my love and drinking champagne in swimming pools during a storm. The times in between are BRUTAL reminders that everything you want, is yours to create and no one is going to wrap it in a box for you, even if it seems to be that way for everyone else.

Jealousy and Assumption are a pair of wicked friends and sometimes you slack off into a bath of self pity and let the two of them whisper bullshit in your ear.

Take walks. Look at people straight in the eye when you say “Hello.” Go for coffee and leave your phone at home. Disconnect your eyes from your interior ego and let the world feed you a much needed feast. Say yes to opportunity and figure it out along the way.

If something feels right from every fiber of your body, do it. halfway there you’ll probably meet doubt and fear, but that’s obstacles and it’s natural. Confront them and forge ahead and don’t look back. I only suggest this, because those are the only times I have felt like a successful, whole, person.

/steps off soap box….

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A guide to sxsw

Just a couple more days to get ready for SXSW! It’s funny how every year that I attend, it’s doing something different. It’s a hectic week in Austin, mostly really fun, sometimes overwhelming and inevitably sludgy in terms of traffic. I’m almost ready for it all, but I need plenty of inspiration to stay focused, otherwise I’m just going to stress out and then I’ll forget everything.

 

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The WEATHER at sxsw is always funny, usually it’s warm, or scorching hot with a crazy temperature drop and icy winds to catch you off guard, to bring fur coats or not? I think I’ll leave them behind…

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No really though… what are we all going to bring?

 

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Absolutely in love with this Lindsey Windlam embroidery, which reminds me of a treasure one would find at Uncommon Objects on South Congress..

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I’ve packed SO many beautiful gauzy floaty white dresses, they’re perfect for enchanting from the crowd at all the shows you’ll catch.. Don’t spill your bloody marys on them though..

tumblr_mys5hfRTyl1qj6oujo1_500If you do.. make sure you’re wearing something amazing under it all.. you never know what kind of trouble you’ll get into..

tumblr_luyzr2jWrL1qg4g7to1_500Make sure you’re partying with people you love, because theres nothing I hate more than drama at festivals! who wants to fight and pout while you’re supposed to have fun?

tumblr_mnmjjaqZPu1s5uquqo1_500Make sure you’ve arranged a fabulous place to camp out because it does get draining after a while. The St. Cecilia is totally booked but you never know what could happen!

tumblr_mv5771njAX1qh78jlo1_500 Just don’t pass out in the street, Austin is cool and cute but weird things still happen. Someone might step on your dress..or something.

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Just have fun! Don’t forget your sunscreen and lipstick.

paoloreversi1999Keep your eyes open and sprinkle little glitter stars..

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And have a blast.

Don’t forget to visit the shop Fauve&Hunter, I’ll be with the ethereal and amazing Dust&Drag at the PsychFest showcase! (more info on that soon)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Daze in Vegas

 

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I went to Vegas with my girls Jamie and Erica.. three girls packed into a little silver car with a Yoda ornament bopping along to the speed bumps and turns, all the way to our black glass pyramid hotel (The Luxor, which I only recommend for it’s pyramid soap and if you need to be close to Magic or whatever trade show is going on at Mandalay Bay) The Luxor has some crazy ghosts which our room service man regaled us with scary tales before leaving us completely bewildered.

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Ax+Apple was showing at ENK Vegas which is one of the more specific shows under the Magic Convention. I always LOVE going to the shows because its the circus, everyone is there, working really hard, you get to see what designers and creators have been dreaming up for the past 5 months and you get to see what’s in store for the next season! It’s like peeking into a visual future.. You get to meet designers, jewelry makers, photographers, investors, musicians.. You inevitable get too tipsy too early and fall into pastry delirium the way we did at The Wicked Spoon on day 2.

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We saw Ice Cube play a show at the Hudson Jean’s party where pink champagne and bowls of strawberries were over flowing and we watched apocalyptic sunrises every morning in our window. I got lost every day and added an extra mile of walking around trying to find an exit to the casino (it’s a trap). Met some beautiful LA designers who I think have one of my favorite new labels, Harlyn.

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It’s got everything I long for from vintage fashion, but in updated fabrics and cuts, all silks and soft soft cotton. The trousers are a dream and the next collection is definitely going to be a huge deal.

Otherwise.. Vegas was Vegas in all it’s weird, chilling reality. We drove home and I felt relief when we drove into our dusky purple sky city.

Now I’m gathering up the pieces to bring to SXSW! I’m beyond excited to be in Texas, to be selling with my soul sister Stephanie and see some bands and meet some of my amazing customers!

Are you going to be at SXSW? Keep in touch!!

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Had a spirited visit from a glittering soul…

Studio.

Attached to our little home is a little white plastered walled with beautiful dark wood framing, large windows and concrete floors. It sits under our living room and has big wooden stairs that lead to the most ridiculously huge trapdoor, we don’t use the trap because it has beams to hold the trap and needs some work, but it’s amazing to have a whole room to ourselves to work in, throw fabric around, set up lights, throw confetti, take photos, paint tables, and leave everything out as we please without bumping into it when you go to the kitchen.

It’s been a revelation to have a place to work in that’s not QUITE your house, where the energy is different, where you don’t waste precious time fidgeting around the house, procrastinating on the myriad of tiny tasks that demand your time. The best is being able to spend time experimenting and taking photos and now I’ll get to the point.

My friend Dora came by after a long sejour in New Orleans. We rarely see each other, which is a drag because she is dreamy and a joy to be around, and is the kind of person that you could go for a walk with and then end up having a weeklong adventure without stopping to ask what’s going on. I shot these photos of Dora in the little studio under the living room, where we drank rye whiskey with Brandon and ate the whiskey gorged berries at the end of our cocktails.

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We followed the adventure by noodles at Pho Cafe, talked of love, dream projects, glam rock romance and novels, got lost on the road back

to my house and then she was off to New Orleans once more.

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A quiet holiday

 

 

 

 

 

We took a brief escape to Las Vegas during the christmas holiday..a crisscrossing mess of twinkling lights and loud noises, ironically quiet during christmas.

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We spent the first night curled up by the fireplace at The Griffin drinking whiskey and exchanging silly gifts with all our other California runaways (it seemed we all had the same idea) and then roaming eery casinos ( I THINK THEY ARE EERY) watching small fortunes disappear in mechanical toys, grannies sipping cocktails with poison red cherries staining the whipped cream that makes their fingers sticky.. smoking cigarette after cigarette and concentrating on trading quarters for dollars..

IMG_0122Letting the sunlight pour in through the blinds so the ghostly orchid can sunbathe a little..

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We did get to explore the town a little bit, visiting art galleries and coffee shops and record stores.. I found some amazing clothes at Electric Lemonade (which Brandon noticed carries Ax+Apple, yay!) and we finally made it home after hours of crazy traffic..

How was everyone’s Christmas?

Also, I’m giving away my favorite dress from Fauve&Hunter!

To win this, simply like Fauve&Hunter on Facebook and repost the image with a link to the shop (and tag us with @fauveandhunter) so I know who you are!

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I will let the winner know December 31st! Anyone can win! Boys and Girls! xoxo

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